a letter to you~

dear You...


i know i have this flaw. i hate myself sometimes for having it. you (and i myself) once said that "cemburu tu tanda sayang" but sometimes it gets out of hand. i know you have convinced me many times that you are faithful and you have no one on the side. but life has thrown too many curve balls at me. hence it is quite hard for me to be fully trust anyone outside my family, especially about my true personality and matters of the heart. i don't know how many times i have said this. i'm sure i already bore you with it.


and this petty jealousy leads to sulking. i know you hate it when i sulk. i am working very hard to rein in the petty jealousy. to rein in the stupid sulking.


i don't wanna lose you. this has GOT to end.


i am in rehabilitation - to rid myself of this disease that could potentially harm our relationship. i apologize for being such an immature boy. i shall grow up. be the 21-year-old that i am. wish me the best :)




Sincerely,

R-A-N-D-O-M

i'm at the CICT.


as you may or may not know, i'm currently learning how to create a lomo effect on images. there's progress but it's not much - still need to form better pics. consulting my friend Norraimi's pix on her blog and also tutorials online. 


going online in my room makes me have high blood pressure. no wonder i get headaches and dizziness at night.


went jogging today (FINALLY!) and went over to see D and S and the girls play futsal. i only came now coz i am finally confident of the actual spot where they play. saw Day live and officially (the time at the UTM field didn't count) and she had a bad knee. and an inconsiderate boyfriend (based on her blog). he's so g*y. hahahahaha...


i miss you. i feel the jealousy bug is coming back. trying my best to keep it down.


final is around the corner. it's being a bitch. bitch. bitch.

Lomo and Ohana :)

playing around with the lomo effect... besides, i miss 'em :)

Bukit Indah

saturday. woke up at noon. tidied up the room, watched the Hills, and waited for lunch proposals. caught syaz posting on nisa's facebook page about going to lunch. so thus begins... the planned destination was Aeon Bukit Indah.

i felt kinda overdressed, but it's the confidence in wearing an outfit that brings out the best in it! :D

mimi, who felt that she was underdressed - but in face she is just anatomically gifted :D

syaz, the car owner, and latent crazy girl.

me and nisa. pardon the crazy hair (on me). we are crazy about how i met your mother. haha

on the way to searching for Aeon Bukit Indah. syaz chose to use non-highway road and we were kinda lost. felt like we were in the first year of UTM again because we are lost...we had to stop and ask for directions. since it is a Chinese neighborhood, guess who was assigned to ask for directions? :P

finally we arrived at Aeon Bukit Indah... entered through Brands Outlet, and we all had the same fate: going to a Sale-laden place but not having the cash to spend on it. *collective sigh* but we still had fun - the girls are trying to find suitable outfits for their internship, and we had this kind of movie montage about trying out clothes... hahaha

waiting for the girls to try on outfits. there was this beautiful girl who was wearing a tudung (the Yuna type) who tried on outfits in the next room, but gradually losing the tudung in the process. but i knew that she was one of those "just cover it for mum/dad's sake", what with her tight little blouse and tight little jeans. but she was undeniably stylish. :D

after the hulabaloo in Brands Outlet, we went over to Padini beside it. great people, great clothes. i asked the girls to try on various shoes - i have always loved those edgy shoes that Padini has to offer, but i haven't met anyone with the guts to wear them. so, i asked thes girls to try'em on and they are great! although a little on the stripper side. HAHAHA... the slippers above were spotted in Jusco - kinda beach-y vibe to it. there was a color for everyone - i couldn't try the orange one because i was wearing shoes that time.

and it was here that i thought of YOU... ;)

then the girls tried out these beautiful floral hairclips, hairbands and hair ties... and i tried on rings on the counter beside it. i'm a size 14! :D

after that was the lingerie department - there was this LOVELY fabric on the Sloggi lingerie that felt like spandex but it wasn't. there are more photos for this department but they're kinda naughty... hehehe 

nisa trying to find a fishnet stocking

(there was none; i think the one on display was only for, well, display)

then everyone went over to Sasa, where i had a BLAST trying on tester stuff. nice smell, bad smell, nice texture, scrubs, et cetera! on top of that, there was NO salesperson to pester me!! i'm gonna come to Sasa again. :P

more talks about how i met your mother... reacher and settler, hookie and hook-er...

everyone got thirsty so we went down to get drinks...

syaz is already crazy at this time.

and then we went back upstairs, the girls tried on more shoes, and basically teared up Jusco.

us sitting down to rest before heading home...

went to get instant noodles to be had at the little hut beside the girls' dorm. ate HarMee. also ate mimi's Kari Berapi and resulted in a nasty tummy ache. and i had a fever last night too. popped two panadol soluble and watched The Hills.

tired but happy.

full but had a tummy ache.

brunette but blonde.

 i heart the Hills.

i heart my crazy bitches friends.

i miss everyone i love who is far away from me.

i miss YOU :)

crazy friday night

oh my god - last nite was crazy i tell you. hahaha...


i didn't get to jog because it was raining heavily last evening. so i tried to clean up my room which i starting to really disgust me. things were ALL over the place, and i was kinda getting embarassed by it. huhuhuhu so i guess that's my exercise for yesterday. 


then a while later i received a text from Dyana: What did you post on my wall? so replied telling her about the "YOU DIRTY LITTLE LIAR" post. and she asked me to remove it. she sounded pissed at the time, so i promptly removed it. then sher texted saying that we hang out at ten. then i resumed my cleaning, after which i went to shower. and then a while after i showered, sher retimed it to 9pm coz she wanted to alter her jeans. better, then - we have more time to hang. hahaha...


and then i ate THREE roti canais - two roti pisang and one roti telur. yeah, i know - i surprised myself. i thought i'd have no dinner coz i didin't get to jog, but turns out i was hungry like crazy. hahaha... and then i thought they'd serve it in one plate, but the order came in THREE separate plates. so i had to go through all three. hahahaha...


i thought we'd have an all-nighter, hanging out at our usual McD spot, but we (Me+S) already went there in the afternoon. so i guess it'd be kind of a bummer. and besides, D has a 9-6 class on Saturday. and S had to send Donna to the airport (she's going to KL). after the dinner and shisha-ing and heart to hearts (more to helping Sher resolve her guy issues), we decided to go to the CICT and study together. the studying part was significantly less compared to the time we used for laughs and fooling around in our secret group... but nevertheless, we studied. i started on the DataComm subject coz it's this coming wednesday. after studying, we went online and D+S blogged, mostly about the blond things and funny things that happened tonight. we had great laughs along with reading D's blog it was starting to get embarassing. haha... around 5am we went back...

what happened before sleep... 

my awfully late bedtime

domo-kun's already asleep...

some reading before going to sleep

i miss you :)