my day in great detail

i wake up to search for my glasses which always manage to be under the bed or somewhere under my pillow. went to take a shower. the water was just warm, i don't know why it can't get hotter (we have a water heater unit) and i took 2 pumps of shampoo to remove the olive oil from my hair. without rinsing it off, i went to get Safi facewash onto my face. then i get my toothbrush and brushed my teeth. after brushing i rinsed everything off. then i put another dose of shampoo, and put shower creme on my body. rinsed everything off and dried myself.

went to the mirror and applied everything in the usual order: face moisturizer, deodorant spray, and hair cream. then rummaged through my closet for an outfit. i'm going for monochromatic. i settled on a collared tee of my brother's and my cropped pants (self-inflicted). but i changed the collared tee coz it doesn't go with the youthfulness of the cropped pants. i changed into my Kamireka Fab Tee instead. packed the laptop into its bag and packed my man-bag with the essentials and i headed downstairs.

a skipped breakfast but i had some Intra Juice and pilfered some Soybean Drink from the box. then mum passed me an apple left over from the kenduri last night. i got ready at around 9 but we didn't leave until 11 because everyone was watching 3 Idiots on Astro. then we headed for Nek Aji's house. before that, dad sent me to town. i had to jump out from the car in the middle of a traffic jam to go meet my friends. we were gonna go out. everyone were to meet at Jungle Park for lunch. i saw Norlyn and i greeted hr. she was waiting for RC. She extended the invite to Norlyn, i did too but i couldn't reach her. turns out she was using her new number. okay, nevertheless, we headed upstairs into JP to have lunch. Ejat and Michelle were already at the table.

had some conversation. Ejat said that we have to go to the Post Office to post the finished Kamireka Thug Life shoes. then RC arrived and we all had lunch. i had Kuetiau Goreng Seafood Belacan and Nes Nai Peng. RC had Mee Basah and Milo Ais. Norlyn had NG Pattaya and warm water. Mich had Mee Basah with Lemon Teh Peng. Ejat had Nasi + Sweet n Sour Fish with Lemon Teh Peng. we ate and chatted. had fun, asking each other what happened in their lives now, et cetera. after lunch we sat down to let the food digest and then we made a move to the PO. but first, we went to CIMB to create a joint account for Kamireka. me and Michelle's. and then the card was given to Ejat to hold. now we headed to the PO.

we walked through Milimewa, cut through the Park of Lies (Taman Bohong, but that's another story) and went through the PO's back into the PO itself. chatted and laughed on the way. thankfully it wasn't THAT hot in the journey. reached the PO to know that the Poslaju system is down. Damn you. but then we remembered there were several courier services on the opposite side of the road and off we went. settled the postage then and there.

now we wanted to head back to Milimewa. to get aircon and just hanging out. but on the way we stopped at a shoe store for RC to look at shoes. her wedges were damaged. she bought one and we continued the brief trip into Milimewa. went in and browsed through shoes at Aden's old workplace (another shoe store) and then we stashed our stuff at the stuff-storage before heading into Milimewa. went upstairs to a section with no one first, to have a short photoshoot and have crazy fun. discussed about Pads and Tamp *wink2* and then headed downstairs to look at clothes. had fun too, aand kinda got a bit rowdy before we went out. i bought new socks, the calves-less ones. 

winding down, went to deli delight to have tea. ABCs for everyone except Ejat who had Milo Tum Ice Blended and Mich who had Lemon Teh Peng. and then we wanted to head to Kaka but Ejat and Mich had to leave. so i went with them since i was heading to Fajar too. reched Fajar, went to multibake. had two muffins. Mich had cheesecake, and Ejat had Tiramisu. Ejat's mum came, and me and Mich head home. walked together. i reached Nek Aji's and said goodbye to Mich. another meeting was planned for Kamireka members only, but we haven't decided on the date yet. reached home, rested a bit.

Arin arrived and he brought the laptop with him so i went online, since we were only making a move after Isyak. he went to Fajar twice, once to get pisang goreng, and then to buy snacks aka Keropok. Hahaha... we settled tea time (for me, the second time) After Isyak prayers, we headed home. Arin drived.

had dinner of Fish and Ginger, a piece of fried Kerapu, and some greens. then they watched the footie match while i did the dishes. finished them and headed upstairs. heard cheers. watched HIMYM and Ugly Betty with sister before they said Nek Aji's going home. me and sis tagged along, Arin drived. sent Nek Aji home and went hunting for topup. RM5 for my Celcom. can't find Hotlink. then went around town, went looking for "night butterfly" spots, and sneaked a peek at the squatters area beside Bandar Wilayah. went to Frog Park to try catching some people trying to hookup (didn't find any). then went into housing areas to just drive around. got chased by stray dogs. went back twice just to tease the dogs. HAHAHAHA...

went back, took a shower, resumed Betty-watching, and listened to music on my phone until i fell asleep...    

where i live

where do i live? Taman Aman 1, a quaint little suburban housing area far from the hustle and bustle of the big city (as if LD is a big city. hahaha) it's like it is at the edge of Lahad Datu... situated on Jalan Silam. My house is a type D terrace, facing a football field. we have a stout coconut tree growing (or it has stopped growing) in the front yard. here it is :D

i love my home :)

p/s: damn you slow connection for making me lag behind in my 30-day blog challenge!

a youtube video

you wouldn't believe how hard it is to go online. the line has been so effing slow. even typing this requires effort. shitty i tell you. here it is.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GE_4RtpVVaw

i can't seem to resize the vid, and i HATE an abnormality on my page so imma give a link instead. enjoy! :P

a moment of weakness

i wasn't seeking reconciliation or anything like that. i know it's over.

i was just gonna say hi.

23/12/2010 random shots

disappointments

friends are her to be our companions and are people we can be ourselves with, and they also provide help and support in times of need. usually these things are unspoken and one shouldn't go and claim it, but what if the support is explicitly said but not delivered?


to be faced with an emotional turmoil in times when family and/or close friends aren't around is truly difficult. i have healed considerably from it and moved on, alhamdulillah. what i am not feeling now is the promised emotional support that was promised but not delivered. when you say you would deliver something, i expect it to be there. coupled with the fragile state of mind i was in, of course i'd be peeved right about now. it's not about whether i did succeed in weathering it alone, it was about delivering the promise that you made. it isn't expected if you didn't explicitly say it, but you did say what you would do to help me but you didn't deliver.

a website

i guess it should be a website that i frequent. some of them may be NSFW (hehehe) but this is the website i go to when i need a laugh: CRACKED.com. the style of writing is incomparable.

a recipe

sambal tempeh, my fave! i'm gonna try to write this without reference! :D

tempeh, cut into small chunks

dried anchovies

chilli paste

shallots, sliced thinly

water

sugar

salt

1. fry the dried anchovies and tempeh (separately) until golden and crispy. take'em out of the wok.

2. sautee the shallots until fragrant and add the chilli paste. add sugar to the desired sweet-hot combo (i like it on the sweet side). add water until the desired amount of "kuah" is achieved.

3. put in the tempeh and dried anchovies and stir until everything is coated in hot and sweet yumminess!

4. serve warm with rice, preferably with nothing else :D

a hobby of mine

my hobby. i have some. but one that hasn't changed is my love of reading. i've started reading since i'm little. i have my parents to thank for instilling this good pastime into me :)

a talent of mine

a talent of mine. something i have since i was a wee tyke: drawing.

people ask me various versions of "macamana kau pandai melukis Naz?" and sincerely, i don't know. i guess it's a gift from God. i just remember seeing my mum draw ladies in dresses when i was little and many many memories of me drawing stuff. i have a planner which my aunt Helena keeps which is filled with my drawings; she keeps it in her office and whenever i was with her in Tawau i'd be drawing in it. my drawing precedes my age; i remember drawing things a three year old aren't supposed to draw (or should even know, for that matter). i have many drawings and have constantly had a problem with teachers for doodling in exercise books or any book with empty spaces in it. i've done murals, posters, pamphlets, designing dresses/outfits, even henna tattooing.

what i want now is for a chance to do graffiti :)

my future wedding

my future wedding. hurm. never thought of it. i mean i have thought about it, just that i think of the marriage more than the wedding itself. i'd be satisfied with a simple akad nikah in a masjid witnessed by my nearest and dearest but that would mean my parents would kill me and my late grandma would rise from her grave to strangle me. hahaha... we're one big clan and that usually means a big wedding is in order. well here's my kinda-instant mental image of my future wedding put in words.

a lot of grooms worry about being fat for their wedding but i guess i'd be fine, what with my tendency to be healthy (hehe). the first outfit should be, of course, the baju melayu. i want it to be royal purple, or even burgundy. i'd like to wear the tall songkok and put a brooch on it. i want to have a samping with a keris on it. my i'm of mixed parentage, but that doesn't mean i'd go for the full Maharaja China regalia to represent my chinese side. i'm particularly fond of the mandarin collar suit, and that shall be my dinner outfit. make it purple. i think two outfits should be fine, but i don't know about the women in my family - they'd want more out of me. hohohoho... oh yea, my fave color is orange but you may ask "why not wear orange?" well friends, orange is a bright color. i don't wanna become a traffic cone on my wedding day, do i? and i don't want "peach" or any other washed-out tones. orange should be accents, for example, maybe the dinner reception shall be accentuated with orange highlights? :)

the bride. hurm, the bride. i don't know if she'll be wearing the tudung for the reception (i'm okay both ways) but i want her in a dress or a kaftan-esque gown. lace is always in order for weddings so that should be fine. cream colored (yeah i am old fashioned about this) but other colors are nice too. it should match my deep purple mandarin coat, of course.

the dinner reception? the rest of the things? i don't know. i'll let the women of my family decide. this is their forte. they take care of the wedding, i'll take care of the bride.*wink*

like this but in purple, and NO prints whatsoever :)

an art piece

as you may or may not know, i am creative director of (soon to be rebranded) Kamireka Art, a creative project of mine with two other besties. we do designing projects like creating t shirts, shoes and also frames (the final two primarily carried out by my partner Ejat) and also take commision work designing pamphlets, t shirts and posters for events and organizations. an art piece that i include here would be one of my designs for shoes. this design has no takers, btw - anybody interested? ;)

song(s) that made me cry

whenever i have a surge of emotion, i always find a song that is able to convey it. it is a way it allows me to communicate my feelings. a song selection at a particular time reflects what i'm feeling at the moment.

Adam Ahmad - Kau Pergi Jua when my paternal grandmother passed away

Hijau Daun - Suara (Ku Berharap) when my ex broke up with me

Maher Zain - InsyaAllah I must hold back the tears whenever I listen to this song

Lulu - To Sir With Love no apparent reason.

my dream house

i am but a single guy, so excuse me for the single guy's dream house... hehehe

my dream house is a simple apartment in the city, not the grungy ones but more of a middle-class/high-end apartment, almost a condo, actually. i want it to be on the higher if not the highest floor. it will be decorated and furnished at least 80% by IKEA. it will have a cozy living room with the sunlight streaming in from a wall height window every morning. the kitchen, of course will be fully-equipped. it's not a proper home without a fully-equipped kitchen and should be quite big. oh, and it HAS to have an island :)


the bedroom? of course i'd like to have a walk in closet, and a bathroom decked with products and a rainfall-type power shower (i heard they're quite nice). it will also have an office made from the extra room. the entertainment will also be in this room because i only want to have books and rugs n cushions in the living room, just a place to chill.


while skimming through the Chrome Web Store, i chanced upon this awesome app called the AutoDesk HomeStyler. go get it, it's fun. i had fun designing an apartment from it. it even allows us to view it in 3D! it isn't a true depiction of my dream house, as the resources were quite limited. hehehehe... here it is...

a non-fictional book

my favorite.

'nuff sed.

impromptu poetry 14/12/2010

i wonder what it'd be like

to stare into your eyes all day long

i wonder what it's like

to hold you in my arms

to smell your fragrant perfume

to feel the warmness of you

deep brown eyes

raven wavy hair

tanned complexion

slender figure

cheerful disposition

an omnipresent sense of humor

everything about you entices

and captivates me

i want to be there for you

rain or shine

to entertain you

to make you smile

to chase the pain away

to chase the fears away

yet with all these i am not able to have you

by my side, to be close to me

to hold and be held

because you're taken

let what i have

be a fleeting memory

be the whimsical play of

emotions and yearning

a fictional book

my posts of things i feature in this 30-day blog challenge may be repeating but that's how i am - very particular about stuff and when i get something good it will be on my top shelf, until something better comes by. but since not one book has been able to topple this one from the top shelf, i will feature it again: the Thief Of Time by Terry Pratchett.

this book has been on my best book list for so long i have forgotten what it's about. i vaguely remember something about an apprentice and the pursuit of something and the ability to travel to the past and the future. this book was borrowed from the library (love the state library!) and wasn't part of a planned reading; i was in the early days of picking up the fantasy genre. i had eight slots on my lib card (i am a bibliophile) and i don't know what else to borrow. the cover and title looks interesting, so i picked this book up. little did i know this would be the best book ever, and the book that spurred me into the fantasy genre.


what makes it awesome is the way it was written: no book (past and present) that i read is written like this one is. because it entails the story of a few characters within the same plot, therefore they were separated by a header that chronicles their movement. the thing is, since this book has time as the object of desire, the header also pictures the movement; for let's say, character A was moving, and then he/she uses his/her ability to move beyond time. the next header looks like this   "charac-" and then continued by the story of character B. and when A finishes moving through time, the header continues with "-ter A", usually on a few pages later. that was but one of the features of this book; the storyline was captivating. i found myself biting my fingernails most of the time due to the suspense.


well there it was: a fictional book.

something that i'm OCD about

i was prepared to type this out last night but i can't pinpoint what i am OCD about. sure i do have something that i am OCD about, but this is what usually happens: when you don't need it, it will be everywhere and will always be in your mind; but when the time comes to call for it you can't seem to think it up or to find it anywhere in the vast storage of your mind. so here it is: the thing that i am very OCD about is wearing the appropriate outfit for any occasion.


this is one of the cardinal rules of dressing that i adhere to: to wear an outfit appropriate to the situation. i really hate being overdressed or under-dressed for something. i have experienced both; and truly, it is the worst feeling. i would feel like a sore thumb sticking out amongst the crowd; me being a bit agoraphobic CERTAINLY would prefer blending in with the crowd. if going out with friends, i also prefer becoming a coherent part of the group, instead of being the under-dressed dork or the overdressed diva. once i didn't attend a function just because what i intended to wear at the function wasn't available i.e. in the laundry. haha


well there you go. something i am OCD about.


p/s: rumor has it that JPA is already out, and the ATM is temporarily unusable (system down) - a sign of the input of a large sum of cash. if it is true... would the first thing i buy be a camera or a phone? teeheehee :P

a thought kept to myself for so long

my allocated crying period may be over, but i still shed tears.


we know that in a relationship, the good and the bad should be shared among partners. i don't understand why you abhorred the fact so much. my attempt to be closer was met with resistance and thought as an "assault to your true self".


when i face difficult times in my life i cannot reach for the phone to text someone anymore. i have no reason to top-up my phone other than to pay for the RM1/week Twitter updates subscription. i cannot get up and grab my phone to text someone a good morning. i cannot send random "love you" and "miss you" texts anymore.


i know it's over but i still miss you. then i saw what you wrote about me and obviously you hated me. i was a burden for you, it seems. that was like a slap in the face. obviously then, it seems like we wasn't understanding each other's notion of love. hence the nasty breakup.


"to forgive is easy, but it's difficult to forget". i have forgiven you. no grudges, no hard feelings. you once made me smile. you once said to never leave you. we were once an item. we once promised to go on a holiday together, buy a ring to symbolize our union. we even pondered on meeting after when i get to the next semester. now all that is history. 


as the typical malay saying goes, "halalkan makan minum aku"; no use in holding on to someone who is intent on letting me go.

a photo of me recently

the pic of me 10 years ago i don't have with me right now, so i will delay it until i get home... so i will skip over to the next challenge :)

snapped on the 4th of december 2010

while waiting for a friend to come take me to lunch :)

day 9 - a photo i took

i chose this one out of the thousands that i have :)

obviously i took it.

a pic i took while having breakfast at aunt Jasmine's house.

love the open layout of her house.

photo that makes me angry/sad

just sad.

a photo that makes you happy

my brother Nazrin and sister Nadia. MMS-ed to me by my mum :)

location: Jungle Park LDU

day 6 - 20 of my favorite things

in no particular order...


1 - my laptop: Dell Inspiron 1525. it's like a bestfriend :) and by association, all my peripherals.
2 - my phones: constant companion. twitter- and facebook-enabled :D
3 - the domo-kun plush: i have coveted one since i first laid eyes on it!
4 - The Nut Graph's Found In Malaysia: great read.
5 - my multivitamins: making sure i'm balanced.
6 - my jeans: they're very custom coz i'm very particular. therefore they mean a lot to me.
7 - my clothes: very custom too for the same reason as #6.
8 - my family: I LOVE THEM!!
9 - my friends: BFFs!!
10 - my resistance bands: workout on the go :)
11 - coffee!! need i say more?
12 - chocolate!! need i say more? :P
13 - panadol soluble. quick and easy.
14 - safi facial wash+moisturizer: the best products up-to-date.
15 - leave-on moisturizer: can't leave home without it!
16 - DKNY's Be Delicious: love the fragrance!
17 - money: DUHH~
18 - coolblog: "peppermint-milk-tea-nak-pearl-tak-nak-ais" in one breath :D
19 - TEMPEH!
20 - RUNNING! euphoria from cardio is the best :)

christmas wish list

no harm in wishing, right? ;)

iPad

iPhone 4

new pair of jeans

new wayfarers

moleskine notebook

canon e50+bag+extra batt

unlimited supply of lipo 6x

this is just the tip of the iceberg... hehehe ;P