I've just read C's blog just now, and it really hits me how much I've lost. A true love. A true friend. A chance at a true relationship. But because of my gluttony and stupidity, I've lost C. And I've let C down too. I'm sorry. So so sorry. I hope that even if C's heart is closed to a reconciliation, at least C would still want to answer my calls, or text me, or get in touch with me in any way.
Know that not a day goes by without me thinking about how stupid I was to fall into the trap.