..::So many tags::..
While counting, grouping and rearranging the name tags for the camping trip this Friday, I had some thoughts. This afternoon, me and three other coursemates hung out at the L50 parking lot kinda discussing about the trip. They were talking about the various issues regarding the trip - progress, setbacks, brainstorming solutions, and taking inventory, among other discussions. And I saw that they are working their ASSES off for things. Not only for the camping trip, but also for the annual dinner. Efforts to raise money for those events have been and are being carried out: sales of trinkets, snack food sale..there are other efforts also in the process, I think.
It really sets me thinking: what are MY efforts in these? What have I done? It really was another slap in my face followed by a splotch of shit to the face for me. I have been putting off work. Procrastinating. And now, where has it placed me? Nowhere. I could practically feel the negativity, perhaps even bad-mouthing about me. Maybe it's just me being neurotic; but it's a good way of thinking; it kicks me back into reality. Get things done. Help out where I can.
I am in this process to better myself. Finally, a New Year resolution that is carried out (other than the weight-loss program which was an OBVIOUS success) The plan is to observe myself, my every move, its consequences, its effect upon others, and be less selfish, among others. Believe me, I'm doing my VERY BEST. Every move I make and/or word I say is thought of at least five times before being put out there, and frankly, it's nauseating, sometimes. All the close observation makes me giddy, unwell too. That's why sometimes I seem aloof and listless. And I wanna get rid of (some) bad habits too. The reason I put this out in my blog is to allow others to be aware of my efforts, and (if possible) remind me if I ever stumble. Which would be quite often.
By no means I am feeling sorry for myself; I'm not putting myself down. I'm not letting go of all responsibilities. In computer terms, I may be using more RAM to defragment, run Disk Cleanup, run a full-system antivirus scan, put up the firewall and Windows Defender instead of properly running some programs and applications. Do remind me, fellow friends, if I ever lose touch with reality or anything.
Yet, don't take this chance (I know some will) to hit me hard with guilt and any other emotional and mental assaults. Not everything is MY fault. I'm not the only bad guy. Remember something in Facebook about being "there for friends"? That statement has been thought of PLENTY of times before finally being decided to be posted. It was already practically void of loopholes. Some friends are just NOT really friends, after substantial thought on my part. They're just there through the good times, and will run away when hardship befalls. A friend's story made me aware of such individuals. Cleaning up myself also means cleaning up my friends' list; and I'm NOT referring to my Facebook's friends list.
It really sets me thinking: what are MY efforts in these? What have I done? It really was another slap in my face followed by a splotch of shit to the face for me. I have been putting off work. Procrastinating. And now, where has it placed me? Nowhere. I could practically feel the negativity, perhaps even bad-mouthing about me. Maybe it's just me being neurotic; but it's a good way of thinking; it kicks me back into reality. Get things done. Help out where I can.
I am in this process to better myself. Finally, a New Year resolution that is carried out (other than the weight-loss program which was an OBVIOUS success) The plan is to observe myself, my every move, its consequences, its effect upon others, and be less selfish, among others. Believe me, I'm doing my VERY BEST. Every move I make and/or word I say is thought of at least five times before being put out there, and frankly, it's nauseating, sometimes. All the close observation makes me giddy, unwell too. That's why sometimes I seem aloof and listless. And I wanna get rid of (some) bad habits too. The reason I put this out in my blog is to allow others to be aware of my efforts, and (if possible) remind me if I ever stumble. Which would be quite often.
By no means I am feeling sorry for myself; I'm not putting myself down. I'm not letting go of all responsibilities. In computer terms, I may be using more RAM to defragment, run Disk Cleanup, run a full-system antivirus scan, put up the firewall and Windows Defender instead of properly running some programs and applications. Do remind me, fellow friends, if I ever lose touch with reality or anything.
Yet, don't take this chance (I know some will) to hit me hard with guilt and any other emotional and mental assaults. Not everything is MY fault. I'm not the only bad guy. Remember something in Facebook about being "there for friends"? That statement has been thought of PLENTY of times before finally being decided to be posted. It was already practically void of loopholes. Some friends are just NOT really friends, after substantial thought on my part. They're just there through the good times, and will run away when hardship befalls. A friend's story made me aware of such individuals. Cleaning up myself also means cleaning up my friends' list; and I'm NOT referring to my Facebook's friends list.
I am still human; full of errors and imperfections.
Even God's mercy is useless without a fellow human's forgiveness to come with it.
Even God's mercy is useless without a fellow human's forgiveness to come with it.
went to Tebrau for a movie. Before that, my friend went to get a dose of the nicotine stick, and I went to browse. I was up to avenge my previously blah weekends, so I went into 
