very sad

frankly speaking. i'm sad. i know you're busy and tired at the end of the day. hence we can't chat like we do before. with plenty of mirth. plenty of laughs. lovingly. with concern. "how was your day" was answered with enthusiasm. but now? you come back home. YM is online, we chatted a bit. a little exchange of words. and you go back to watching GG/Betty/whatever series. i know i have things to do. but i do rest in between and i look forward to chatting with you. instead you prefer watching the series. lagged replies. the only time we have active conversations is when we point out something or someone that is a potential threat to the relationship (owing to my jealous nature) and a small fight ensues. the pause after we chat a bit (hostile or otherwise) is followed by total silence, and i know you're asleep. no more proper good nights like before. oh i understand, you're tired.


YES, i understand. you're tired.
YES, i understand. you wanna unwind.
YES, i understand EVERYTHING.


but do you understand me?


when something go wrong, you don't really bother talking things out. i want honesty. talking things out means you're putting an effort into this relationship. we can't just talk about the good stuff and let the bad ones be stashed away in a corner.


imma go silent after this, i guess. don't be mad or surprised if i don't reply texts, return calls or accept them. 


they say "people who make you cry are not worth your tears, and people who are worth it will never make you cry in the first place."